essence of life????

questions that is so hard to explain yet it's hard to know.

questions that always find answer..

As i grow older my realization in life goes deeper but telling you the truth i can't find the answer about the essence of my life, why am I in this world,what's the importance of my life and what if I can't accomplish my task.. many what's running in my mind...

I remember my childhood days "dati simple lang ang buhay parang walang problema, dati nasabi ko sa sarili ko " bakit kaya may mga taong nagpapakamatay pag may problema", samantalang madali lang namn eh di wag mong problemahin di ba????, but now all things was different ngayon ko lang nalamn mahirap palang magkaron ng problema, yun bang pakiramdam mu katapusan na ng mundo para sayo., pero buti na lang cguro may mga kaibigan tayong nanjan para tumulong at magpasaya sa atin., parang dun ko naramdaman yung buhay, buhay na sinasabi nilang dapat mahalin at pahalagahan parang dun ko din nakikita yung essence ng buhay ko na di ko pa din maintindihan na minsn naguguluhan pa din ako..Kasi may mga bagay na mahirap ipaliwanag at mahirap intindihin..

And i can't find the words to say I know my life is.

you do you really know the essence of your life???????(can you tell me about yours??)